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I just cannot go on,

    To whoever finds this, this is my only confession.  It was 1980 and my wife and I had just moved in to our new town house. We were just married and settling into the motions of our lives. My wife would stay home and tend the garden and house, then go for her run later just before I got home from work. I would run in the morning, then shower and head to my daily job. It was the same for three months. It was the same, but I loved it that way.

    In October just as the leaves were shifting to orange, I set out on my morning run. I smiled and kissed my wife goodbye, but it was the last I've had of either. I set off down the street and just about a mile down, I felt I was being watched. I felt something creeping in on me at all angles and just as I heard the sounds of my attackers, everything went black, all except for their eyes. It’s been so long since then, time cannot be measured here. I've tried counting, but the only thing I can count is my heartbeat and that drives me more and more insane each day.

  They stole me from my life, plucked me from it like a wild cherry. Each day I still run, I face the maze. I can still feel the eyes on me as I devour the placebos they line in front of me. So many pills, I cannot stop, I still feel them watch me, creeping in on me, and capturing me. When they do, sometimes I dream I’m looking in the mirror and my wife is looking back, wearing the pretty pink bow I had gotten her for our six month anniversary. Still, I wake to the maze and eat and eat and eat. Hoping to find a real dose tucked away in some corner of the labyrinth. I can feel them drawing closer, getting faster. My only hope is the drug and they have trained me to know this without a shadow of a doubt.

    Mere moments after ingesting the right meds, even if they lay dirty in the gutter, my senses shift the phantoms are given flesh and they are viable prey for me. I have only moments, but in those moments I devour them too. I feast upon them all of them, all but their eyes. The cold eyes stare back at me, cowing me into back into the twisted cage that is the maze. I have lost count as to how many I have gorged myself on, but the hunger never stops. I still hope to find my way out, away from the ensnaring stares that force me to binge. I fear that my hope is waning and in truth I just cannot go on. If you find this, oh God if you find this, I pray you do not share my fate as well.

                                      Lost and Scared,
                                               Pac-Man
Maybe this is what we do day to day. We search threw an endless maze filled with distractions and self deceit hoping to find true moments of enlightenment. We crave it and hunger for it relying on outside stimuli to spark inner revolution. There comes a time when one reaches the point where they give up control and let go of the lies they tell themselves. No outside stimuli can bring you inner peace, you must find that on your own and mirror that in the world around you.

Obviously the character speaking here does not belong to me. Just the letter.
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Given 2014-05-18
A deep and humanizing take on an iconic game from the 80's.

His Confession by DenNami ( Suggested by DarkGoddessK and Featured by SingingFlames )
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spiritplumber Featured By Owner May 18, 2014
This is good.
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DenNami Featured By Owner May 19, 2014  Student Digital Artist
thank you!
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ClockworkAngel19 Featured By Owner May 18, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
WOW...just WOW!
Well-deserved DD
have a fav
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DenNami Featured By Owner May 19, 2014  Student Digital Artist
thanks so much :hug:
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Katahu Featured By Owner May 18, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I don't know what to say. So here's a fav.
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DenNami Featured By Owner May 19, 2014  Student Digital Artist
thank you!
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Jimworld70 Featured By Owner May 18, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
"And... Pacman... THAT ONE JUST SAYS FREAKING PACMAN." - Jontron
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DenNami Featured By Owner May 19, 2014  Student Digital Artist
I'm not sure where that comes from, but uhm okays lol
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Jimworld70 Featured By Owner May 19, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
Yup.
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TheGalleryOfEve Featured By Owner May 18, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Congratulations on your well-deserved DD!!! :iconflyingheartsplz::iconlainloveplz::iconflyingheartsplz: :clap::clap::clap:
I’m very happy for you!!! :iconloveloveplz: :tighthug:
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