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I just cannot go on,

    To whoever finds this, this is my only confession.  It was 1980 and my wife and I had just moved in to our new town house. We were just married and settling into the motions of our lives. My wife would stay home and tend the garden and house, then go for her run later just before I got home from work. I would run in the morning, then shower and head to my daily job. It was the same for three months. It was the same, but I loved it that way.

    In October just as the leaves were shifting to orange, I set out on my morning run. I smiled and kissed my wife goodbye, but it was the last I've had of either. I set off down the street and just about a mile down, I felt I was being watched. I felt something creeping in on me at all angles and just as I heard the sounds of my attackers, everything went black, all except for their eyes. It’s been so long since then, time cannot be measured here. I've tried counting, but the only thing I can count is my heartbeat and that drives me more and more insane each day.

  They stole me from my life, plucked me from it like a wild cherry. Each day I still run, I face the maze. I can still feel the eyes on me as I devour the placebos they line in front of me. So many pills, I cannot stop, I still feel them watch me, creeping in on me, and capturing me. When they do, sometimes I dream I’m looking in the mirror and my wife is looking back, wearing the pretty pink bow I had gotten her for our six month anniversary. Still, I wake to the maze and eat and eat and eat. Hoping to find a real dose tucked away in some corner of the labyrinth. I can feel them drawing closer, getting faster. My only hope is the drug and they have trained me to know this without a shadow of a doubt.

    Mere moments after ingesting the right meds, even if they lay dirty in the gutter, my senses shift the phantoms are given flesh and they are viable prey for me. I have only moments, but in those moments I devour them too. I feast upon them all of them, all but their eyes. The cold eyes stare back at me, cowing me into back into the twisted cage that is the maze. I have lost count as to how many I have gorged myself on, but the hunger never stops. I still hope to find my way out, away from the ensnaring stares that force me to binge. I fear that my hope is waning and in truth I just cannot go on. If you find this, oh God if you find this, I pray you do not share my fate as well.

                                      Lost and Scared,
                                               Pac-Man
Maybe this is what we do day to day. We search threw an endless maze filled with distractions and self deceit hoping to find true moments of enlightenment. We crave it and hunger for it relying on outside stimuli to spark inner revolution. There comes a time when one reaches the point where they give up control and let go of the lies they tell themselves. No outside stimuli can bring you inner peace, you must find that on your own and mirror that in the world around you.

Obviously the character speaking here does not belong to me. Just the letter.
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Given 2014-05-18
A deep and humanizing take on an iconic game from the 80's.

His Confession by DenNami ( Suggested by DarkGoddessK and Featured by SingingFlames )
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spiritplumber Featured By Owner May 18, 2014
This is good.
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DenNami Featured By Owner May 19, 2014  Student Digital Artist
thank you!
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ClockworkAngel19 Featured By Owner May 18, 2014  Student Writer
WOW...just WOW!
Well-deserved DD
have a fav
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DenNami Featured By Owner May 19, 2014  Student Digital Artist
thanks so much :hug:
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Katahu Featured By Owner May 18, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I don't know what to say. So here's a fav.
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DenNami Featured By Owner May 19, 2014  Student Digital Artist
thank you!
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Jimworld70 Featured By Owner May 18, 2014
"And... Pacman... THAT ONE JUST SAYS FREAKING PACMAN." - Jontron
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:icondennami:
DenNami Featured By Owner May 19, 2014  Student Digital Artist
I'm not sure where that comes from, but uhm okays lol
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Jimworld70 Featured By Owner May 19, 2014
Yup.
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TheGalleryOfEve Featured By Owner May 18, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Congratulations on your well-deserved DD!!! :iconflyingheartsplz::iconlainloveplz::iconflyingheartsplz: :clap::clap::clap:
I’m very happy for you!!! :iconloveloveplz: :tighthug:
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:icondennami:
DenNami Featured By Owner May 19, 2014  Student Digital Artist
O.O :la: :tighthug: thank you!
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TheGalleryOfEve Featured By Owner May 20, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:iconflyingheartsplz::iconsweethugplz::iconflyingheartsplz:
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Jenny345 Featured By Owner May 18, 2014
Nice.
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:icondennami:
DenNami Featured By Owner May 19, 2014  Student Digital Artist
thank you
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Jenny345 Featured By Owner May 19, 2014
You're welcome.
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Jenny345 Featured By Owner May 19, 2014
You're welcome.
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Mikirar Featured By Owner May 18, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
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DenNami Featured By Owner May 19, 2014  Student Digital Artist
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
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JNRedmon Featured By Owner May 18, 2014
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....wow, I did NOT see that coming. This is freaking brilliant.
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:icondennami:
DenNami Featured By Owner May 19, 2014  Student Digital Artist
thanks so much ^^
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Admiral-Thunder-Bolt Featured By Owner May 18, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
This is both funny and twisted at the same time.
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DenNami Featured By Owner May 18, 2014  Student Digital Artist
thank you glad you liked it!
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Admiral-Thunder-Bolt Featured By Owner May 23, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
No problem!
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potato243 Featured By Owner May 18, 2014
omfg
i laughed when i saw the signature xD
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DenNami Featured By Owner May 18, 2014  Student Digital Artist
thanks glad you like it!
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straygod Featured By Owner May 18, 2014
lol, brilliant.  well done.
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:icondennami:
DenNami Featured By Owner May 18, 2014  Student Digital Artist
thanks so much!
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Pigbot3 Featured By Owner May 18, 2014
This is simply hilarious. Well done!
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DenNami Featured By Owner May 18, 2014  Student Digital Artist
thank you very much
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Modeo Featured By Owner May 18, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
This is simply amazing.
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:icondennami:
DenNami Featured By Owner May 18, 2014  Student Digital Artist
thank you so much ^^
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ozpakko Featured By Owner May 18, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Clever!
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DenNami Featured By Owner May 18, 2014  Student Digital Artist
ty thats what :iconwolfgem: always says too lol
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:iconozpakko:
ozpakko Featured By Owner May 19, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Sorry, who?
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DenNami Featured By Owner May 19, 2014  Student Digital Artist
lol my best friend. She always says I'm clever. Thanks again
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ozpakko Featured By Owner May 19, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome.
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schriftsteller Featured By Owner May 18, 2014   Writer
This is brilliant writing. You must have quite the imagination to be able to take this kind of inane subject matter and turn it into something so bold and emotional that the reader feels their pain. That's true talent and I was with you, and the character all the way through. Congratulations on your very well deserved DD. I'm really glad I could read this.
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DenNami Featured By Owner May 18, 2014  Student Digital Artist
thank you so much lol that made me squee out of joy lol. Glad you could be here to read it too!
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schriftsteller Featured By Owner May 18, 2014   Writer
Haha well that's good to hear! I'm glad I could make you happy.
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DenNami Featured By Owner May 18, 2014  Student Digital Artist
:love:
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Anonymous-Koala Featured By Owner May 18, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
wow,wow, and what is the word? wow! you turned pac man into a humanized sad story. well done,well done.
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DenNami Featured By Owner May 18, 2014  Student Digital Artist
thanks so much!
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AnimeShark Featured By Owner May 18, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
oh my god dat twist.
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:icondennami:
DenNami Featured By Owner May 18, 2014  Student Digital Artist
lol thanks!
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AnimeShark Featured By Owner May 18, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
np~!
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Icseal Featured By Owner May 18, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Angst, feels, truly this is a materpiece.
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DenNami Featured By Owner May 18, 2014  Student Digital Artist
woah thats big praises o.o thank you so much!
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MrBlubbs3252 Featured By Owner May 18, 2014
I'm sitting there thinking oh lord what is this poor man going through what is going on *reads the signature* lololololololololololol XD
well played, well played I was not expecting that 
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DenNami Featured By Owner May 18, 2014  Student Digital Artist
XD thanks so much glad you liked it and that it could bring you to that edge and laughter.
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ElephantAndSpyroFan Featured By Owner May 18, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
I've always enjoyed Pac-Man, but now whenever I play it, I'll probably end up thinking of this and try to find him a way out of the maze lol I feel so bad for him, now ._. But yeah, awesome job. It's a very deep way to think of the game. Congrats on the DD, definitely deserved~
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